Here we go again.
He's back.
He walked and hitchhiked 150 miles to show up at my place of work.
I looked up and saw a guy standing there by the door. I did a double take and it was him!
The feeling that came over me was indescribable. I guess you could say my heart melted and my whole body started tingling. You know...that tingling you get when you see the love of your life. The love that changes your whole life.
I waved at him. He did the "Call me" sign. I nodded and said "Ok."
I texted him that I get off at 5:30. At 4:45 I started hustling my co-worker saying "Let's do this. I gotta go at 5:30." I hurriedly finished closing up, grabbed some food and rushed out of there.
I saw T.Y. walking down the street towards me. I walked towards him. He dropped his backpack and said "Give me a hug."
You better believe I did!
We then walked 8 miles back to my place. I gave him a clean towel so he could take a shower. I fed him. I hugged him again.
I told him what had happened that night after he had gotten arrested again. That I had looked through his phone. But that now I was sorry because I felt like I had violated his privacy. He said it wasn't my fault. That it was ok. He said everything was his fault and that he was sorry.
I asked if had had any visitors while in jail for those three weeks.
"No."
I said I felt like the other woman was just using him.
He looked at me sadly.
I said "Don't take advantage of me because you know I care about you."
"I won't."
We then talked to A.A.
T.Y. told him "I owe you a lot for taking care of Shelby."
He told me I was a good person.
We then went to bed.
I laid there next to him with my hand on his stomach and said "It's so good to see you again."
"It's good to see you too." He replied.
The next day I fed him some more and let him rest.
That night Bear came back to my house because A.A. had had him.
We were all together again. Just like I knew we would be.
Monday morning he walked me to the bus stop so I could catch the bus to work.
He hugged me and said "I can receive and make calls. I can also get passes to leave. Keep in touch."
I told him that I was going to tell him the same thing. To keep in touch and to take care of himself.
He said "Don't act like this is the end. We are in the same town."
"Right." I replied.
"You are such a cool person and you saved my life. Again." He whispered to me.
You're damn right I am and did!
But of course I didn't tell him that.
"Call me when you get off work." He told me as my bus pulled up.
"I will."
We made plans to for me to write a book about him. I said that I would do it. And besides that will give me an excuse to visit him.
So....you're probably wondering what this whole 'pass to leave - I'll visit you" talk is.
See, T.Y. is checking into a military hospital to get the he needs. The help he knows he needs.
He had told me that he had to lose everything to realize that he really needs help.
I am really glad that he decided to do this.
I am really glad that we are back in the same city again.
I texted him tonight after work: "Sleep well....and no nightmares."
"You too."
He knows I get bad nightmares when I sleep in complete darkness with no one next to me.
I know that he gets bad nightmares from what he experienced in the war.
I really love him. And always will.
I told you.
I looked into his eyes.
And I'm back.
We're together again.
Stay tuned,
Shelby
